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NARU Expedition 1

2009-09-21T23:32:00.004+08:00

NARU Expedition 1
Brought to you by Nana & Ruru

Guide: Nana
Destination: IMM Streets & Anderson's Ice Cream

As usual, the moment we reached, we were more engrossed with our chatting then shopping.. and ended up walking aimlessly..

Arriving at our 1st stop.. Anderson's Ice Cream..
Haha .. Actually is we passed by and feel like eating.. So I ordered a regular Strawberry and Cream which is having offer at $3.50 and Ruru have a Junior Banana Crunch at $3.80... Umm.. Yummy =P
Went to Daiso to do some shopping and at 5+p.m we went to have our dinner at "Streets"..

Our orders are 2 Cheese baked rice with Portuguese chicken, 1 cold milk tea and 1 lemon tea...
Somehow my lemon tea's lemon have super lots of seeds which is really ma fan.. argh..
We ate the cheese baked rice.. However, due to me just recovered from cold, my appetite have not returned, I cant finish it =(.. and Ruru having injured her thumb in workplace and small appetite?? (heex XP) Also couldnt finish hers... What a waste .. haiz ..

(My mother told me we should have just orders 1 plate and share.. haha and then order another thing.. maybe something hot like soup .. Why didnt I thought of that =P)

After our dinner, we went for more shopping in Giant and CD shops (Windows shopping XP).. .
We brought sweets and breads... and went home..

Ruru.. To our future in Japan.. Let's learn some Japanese.. XP
Words Corner
- Bread : Pan (Not flying pan's pan.. is Pa-n)
- Strawberry Bread: Ichigo Pan
- Red bean Bread: Azuki Pan
- Sweets: Su-i-tsu

Stay Tuned >.- Sayounara!

Sailor Moon!

2009-08-03T13:14:00.000+08:00

I have found something I really wanted very badly since I am kid and it is this the sailor moon star locket.

This is tha japan version heard it is out on 1992.. I am only 3/4 years old.. I think I haven't even watch sailormoon.. no wonder I couldnt find it when I go OG to buy sailor moon toys last time. Ended up buying the Bandai version of the crescent moon wand.. which i threw away (during sec sch) =_=ll I think I very stupid sia.. For something I like so much.. Just because I dont have any space to keep it and scare my mother scold me about messy room T.T Now I think about it I REGRET very much! Even though the wand's accessories don't have the sliver moon.. T.T

However the music is nicer on this version .. A lot of people say it is the korean version.. Although it's design & music is more accurate but I think the star for japanese version is nicer..

There are people selling on ebay for S$400+ That is soooo EXPENSIVE!

Actually my ideal locket is necklace type. The star (made of metal, plated with gold/ or just made of gold) slightly bigger than 50 cents coin. Open it will have the music nice and slow. With the moon circulating the center cirle, sky moving at the background and light... LOL.. if really like this think it will end up very big.. Wonder if can custom make it... But if really have, I think I will bring it everywhere I go .. XD

One piece

2009-07-27T21:36:00.004+08:00

My current favourite anime is one piece! Just finished watching 410 eps + 7 movies + 4 side stories + 1 ovas (excluding movie 8&9: it is only a summary of the main series). AND it is still ONGOING! (YES!)

There is really no bored moment with Luffy being silly, Zoro getting lost, Nami's money face & hitting the LUC gang, Usopp's "can't get on to the island" illness, Sanji's lovestuck, chopper's cuteness, robin's coolness, franky's another type of coolness (with building stuff) and Brook's "YOHOHOHO"..
The strawhat crew are getting big! (Total: 9 crews) I rewatched the first few episode and luffy mentioned something about wanting around 10 crewmates.. Dont know whether true of not ... haha
It is so hard to choose which is my favourite character since all of them are well-created.. even those supporting characters like galley-la, franky house members (ALthough I REALLY hate them - w franky - initially for what happened to Usopp.. but nvm. Also, Usopp is getting cooler and cooler.. haha with sogeking), Luffy's grandpa (Garp), ACE, even Hachan (The takoyaki umai sou!)..etc

Hopefully it will go on for another 10 years XD hahah .. that means 800+ episode ... Well.. just hope it wont have lousy endings or start having long recaps like some anime does when they are catching up with the manga.. I rather have filter episodes..

I love their SONGS TOO! Especially opening songs "WE ARE" (All versions), "BON VOYAGE", "BRAND NEW WORLD", "HIKARI E", "SHARE THE WORLD", "BELIEVE", "MIRAI KOUKAI", "ORETACHI WA FAMILY"... DBSK's song are really nice ♥, the babystars and strawhat crew too.

SIM

2009-06-29T22:21:00.005+08:00

It has been a week since the start of the bridging course in SIM.
At first I thought we only study for:

Tue & Sat 830am to 1130am (BECONS) &
Wed & Fri 12noon to 3p.m (BMATH)

But ended up study from mon to sat 3 hours each.
Lucky my jap just ended on 20Jun. If not I wouldnt know what to do.

Bridging

Actually the speed of bridging is quite ok (Each lesson around 1 or less that 1 chapter taught) but then.. there are 3 econs in one week (tue, sat, mon/thur).. so 1 week 3 chapters , it is like u havent absorb what u just learn yesterday/the day before, it is already the next chapter..

Currently I am really seriously studying (Maybe half serious... going full serious soon) cause I really would like to have a nice photo of my family with my cert on my table.. Poly one is like I haven't wake up sia .. haiz (and my parents never participate in any of my school event b4 de.. except a compulsory sec 4 parent's meeting)

Also, since the start of my bridging I am quite disappointed with myself in math.
1. I have forgotten 98% of what I have learnt
2. I can't do as fast as like I used to
3. My mental calculations are really horrible
4. My mind like rusty liao

Especially today when doing differentiation.. I am such a noob.. All the formulae have disappeared from the back of my head.. Stuck and I gave up.. Wait for answer. Although once I know the formula, I can solve it (but who cant =_=ll)

For the first time I am really frustrated with myself regarding maths.. I hate myself..!
I guess I slacked too much in poly liao... (in my life until now, poly is REALLY plain - no ccas, no competitions, not prefect, no academic achievements, no awards, no participate sport days, no learn extra stuffs, no study seriously)

Since I slack 3 years le, time to "work" for the 2 years le... Joanna is "reviving!" (I guess)
But I have slept each and every lectures without fail for both math and econs.

Jap

I got back my jap exam results on last monday 22jun I guess.. I am really very happy of the results.
Oral: Full marks (I think almost everyone full.. Too easy le XD)
Listening + Written: 98/100

I wonder where I made mistakes .. Why cant we get back the papers. =[
How can we learn better if we do not know our mistakes...

We are supposed to receive a cert from the sch itself.. Somehow no news about it .. =S

2009-06-13T23:49:00.003+08:00

It is getting really rusty here.. I doubt any people come here anymore...

But SERIOUSLY I can't find anything interesting to do...
(Although I have Jap exam next Sat but feels like no need to study liao since I study ALMOST everytime I am free.)

so...
NO game to play
NO baking (no EGGS ! haiz)
NO drama/anime to watch
NO friend to call or go out with (They are not active, like me)
NO family to go out with (I guess better not.. I will only be more tired)
NO BF (Wish to have one .. But maybe not. Troublesome?)
Of course normal weekdays got work but finally weekend liao yet can't find anything to do..

And ended up here..

2009-05-15T21:50:00.002+08:00

A bit of update

Currently my internet down at home for a week. so wont be online for almost a week (already 3 days liao)

I went to a QI GONG master and he says that a lot of my bones are crooked (including my head... =[ ) That is why my blood dont flow well and I have purplish (??) or dark lips .. Often headaches and dont sleep well, etc etc

Currently in treatment under him... hehehe

Graduation Feelings -> Dont really feel very good that day plus so scar on my face and bad hair day haha ... so in quite bad mood... dont look nice in any photos haiz... .

Regret -> For not being active ... I thought it is because I want to relax after sec sch.. LAZY
Last time take O lvl cert my teacher already tell me to touch up english le but I did not care cause I think poly do not need it ... who knows she is actualy thinking about my Uni?

After grad planning... I dont really feel sad about not going NTU (I guess I cant get in) cause I wanted to go NTU in the first place is to learn free violin and enjoy my last 3 school life with full CCAs only..
I think I prefer going to SIM instead .. Hopefully I can get in ..
I kind of feel like I found what I wanna do... still not sure though..

Currently going on well in my parent's shop... Almost can recognise all chinese herbs liao ... hahhah! =D

2009-04-02T23:21:00.003+08:00

Very long no update le .. hhaa

Currently helping out in my parent's shop.. with an allowance of $30 a week .. haha

(The following is just my rambling... Just really feel like saying out..)
Today was the most horrible day .. My mother keep scolding me for every little thing.. like my clothes not nice, so ugly, saying I look like China people and then China people also bu ru.. Then in shop, keep saying see my face also sian, go out one time, character change liao.. (Even though I feel that is she who has changed).. Suddenly push one packet of med to me.. ask me to unpack.. So i did .. Then started scolding me say I dont know/not even willingly to help.. She only told me to unpack and nothing else.. but actually she wanted me to change 600g to 300g.. How can I know her implied meaning when she didnt even mention anything.. X[
Then she dont know why keep provoking my father.. My father finally burst and they quarrelled.. She say that it is all my fault that I cause them to quarrel.. Even though I did not talk much in the shop and I am not their topic of quarrel.. My father started kicking stuff, wanting to ease his anger and my mother keep saying sarcastic stuff..
After my father go out to deliver goods, my mother and I started working non-stop until 3pm.. Then she wanted to fix the wooden stick shelf from IKEA.. So I help to hold lo.. Not sure how to help so keep get scolding/nagging like help also dont know, I am a hindrance, go away and saying next time I go work surely cannot make it one and that I do not even know what I want (CORRECT! I dont know what I want.. I am staring to have no desire or dream at all .. That is why I can't perform to my max.).. Finally, she ask me go one side angrily.. but I suddenly cannot stand up (I am squating).. my left knee dont know why like slightly dislocated.. I cannot move.. I am so scare cause it is the same stituation as my right knee which I injure before.. My mother did not even say a word of concern.. and instead say I everything also ouch! ouch! ouch!.. want me to go away quickly.. Although I got scolded so many times previously, I did not really get angry or sad.. but at that time I really feel like crying, cause I really can't stand, it is not a normal ouch and nothing thing.. I am really scare and felt helpless.. However, I still forcefully stand up and there is a rather loud bone cracking sound I can feel inside me.. Anyway.. after a while, she still need my help after all .. Of course, she kept on her nagging..
She stopped when my father came back.. My father is still very angry, but my mother's mood like changed le.. She keep trying to make my father happy like wanting to bring him eat stuff that he likes.. She stopped scolding and nagging.. However, my father's face is totally black, nothing can please him.. Then, my mother's mood change again.. They started "cold war" and to make my dad angry.. My mother like forgot all about what she said to me and started being friendly all over to me.. Bring me go shopping, eat dim sum, buy shirt.. tell me what she feel..

=_=ll Haiz.. I am always standing on an edge of a cliff..

28 Mar - JJ's CONCERT!

I went to JJ's concert 2009. I tried recording the concert but the place where I am sitting, the sound is so LOUD! that it is beyond my mp3's limit .. haha
Maybe because of the sound that I dont really enjoy it much either.. More than half of the time I am ensuring that my heart didn't jump out.. =_=ll
And regretting not bringing camera.. haiz..

Somehow I feel that initially the concert is not really good .. until the middle part then I feel that JJ's voice is very nice.. hmm.. Well.. I am at a loss of words of what to say about the concert since I don't really feel anything special.. like the other time when I go Japan.. Wait too long until my excitement died off.. haiz .. wasted

After the concert ended on 1145pm.. H and I waited for Taxi at the Taxi stand.. Not really a lot of people waiting but somehow there isn't much taxi .. We decided to call for a cab.. Guess what? The person asked us to wait for 52 mins.. 52 mins.. It is like the taxi is coming from boon lay or Tuas to kallang.. In fact, it only took 30+ mins from boon lay to kallang..

But we have no choice.. So we decided to wait. We went to the toilet and waited for JJ at the carpark to come out XD .. hahah .. We saw JJ's parents.. They even waved to us in the car and say bye bye .. hehe ... Also, xu huan liang, lan bo, By2 and a lot of others .. After nearly 40 mins, JJ still did not come out ..

The taxi is coming soon, so we started walking back to the taxi stand.. Disappointed...
Suddenly, Someone is shouting.. JJ is out! .. haha.. We ran back again.. JJ got off the car and talk to his fan club (who are surrounding him).. I wanted to go and talk to him.. ARGH! If only if I am not sweaty and sticky.. The concert is sligtly warm and I perspire quite a bit .. Then feel like so dirty and smelly XD .. I am too self concious T.T

Well.. nvm.. I still get to see him quite near and heard him talking.. but it is rather dark there.. so his face is not clear .. =[ After a while, he got back to the car and went off.. Then, at last I saw him clearly when the car went pass us .. hehehe .. He is like eating something or what .. XD.. Yeeeah..

2009-03-16T23:51:00.002+08:00

Went job searching today in JP but did not gain any results ..

Because

Sat -> 1 -4 pm Jap class
Sun -> 10 - 1pm Baking Class

All of them wanted fulltime worker ..

If I work everyday except those few hours, am I still considered full-timer?

2009-03-15T23:09:00.002+08:00

I had my first baking lesson today..

それからも頑張ってですよね。。。ヘヘ

2009-03-13T22:47:00.002+08:00

I always remember most of my dreams and I have a really weird dream yesterday..

My dream
I am hesitating about whether to attend my ex's birthday gathering. My best friend, H, who currently have a boyfriend, advised me to go and will accompany me. She felt that I haven't give up on my feelings for him yet.

Suddenly, H tell me that she is in love with my ex and they are in a relationship. She wanted to send him a love letter and was thinking whether the letter is appropriate and asked me to help her.. (The letter is ridiculous saying, "Dear waffle, ... ." Waffle?? what kind of nick is that?)

I felt really weird, cause she got a boyfriend all that already, why 2-timer? Maybe I am jealous too? (It is a relationship that ends before it starts afterall.. I am not sure if I still like/really liked him) I started sending sms to my ex saying something like H is not really serious with him, and everything to spoil my friend's image XD

Then the next day when I wanted to go out, my ex is waiting somewhere for me to appear(Never see the place before).. I said "Hello" and begin walking off.. Out of a sudden, he said,"你知道我很爱你吗?".. OMG !!! WTH iis that?! I totally got shocked in my dream ..

Too bad my mother appear before I get to reply him.. hahaa .. cause it is time to wake up for work XD

In fact I am really shock in real life too cause I could not forget his last words.. I think I have been waiting for those words for years .. but only get to hear it in my dreams XP (Better than nothing hahha).. I wonder if I still desire to hear it from him? Maybe not ..

To think that I even tried inviting him to our class's night cycling.. Exactly what am I am thinking =_=ll

2009-03-12T23:33:00.002+08:00

I am really happy.. Someone messaged me in CR to say thank you for an episode of an anime that I subbed last year. First time someone did that =D Although I only subbed two episodes before ... haha

It makes me feels like someone is really watching what I put an effort to do... XD

2009-03-07T01:20:00.006+08:00

The more I think about what I should do in the future, the more I feel as if everything in my life is not complete/perfect .. Everything didnt go as what I planned XD

Pri sch:
P2-> I learnt gymnastic for nearly 1 year and quit before competition (I scare of competition.. but really regret now)
P5-> I learnt electric keyboard until before having its' exams (cause "everyone" is saying piano is a more proper musical instrument)
PSLE-> Planned to study one month ahead and started playing 2 weeks later (Cause my Pri sch tution teacher say it is important to "relax")

So there isn't any purpose in learning gymnastic/keyboard since I can't bend anymore or play much keyboard already. My determination for studying is half-hearted XP

Sec sch:
Sec2-4-> I stop Piano until practical grade 3 with no theory (I dont like the teacher.. )
sec 1-4
-> Always wanted to study hard... but only mid exam good, EOY exam average (cause already don't feel like studying. Tired)
-> Never faithfully/seriously practice my piano, keyboard (cca) or harmonica until last minute.. Even though I claim to like them very much (Too.. proud and confident about my skills last time XD OF course I am lousy..)
-> Dont remember what I study
-> Sign up for 'O' Level music, never hand in application form
'O' Level -> Planned from prelims to 'O's to study, study before prelim and started playing after prelim until the day before each exam.
Alumini -> Only write name there, no participation

Didn't finish my piano or be skilled in any instruments. 'O's results are not as good as they should be.. No memorises of what I learnt.

Poly
1st year
-> Join 3 ccas, quit 3 ccas (After the first cca session)
-> Wanted to be more active in BA Cares, joined one event and didnt continue
3rd year-> Want to join Tsubasa (CCA), yet say and no action
1st - 3rd year-> Still each sem planned one month ahead, study one day before
Results (5 sem)-> Average
Achivement-> None

Nothing is completed .. And the effect of not completing anything is:

When I went back to sec sch for appraisal previously, my ex-T asked me to give her the information about my poly life.. I thought for a long time.. Commitment, results, CCAs, competition, etc.. nothing is worth to mention to her and it might even bring her opinion of me down. Not to mention I joined the alumini but didnt participate in any (Actually is I didnt receive any emails also)

Then, when deciding about my future path..
study?
NTU- accountancy/biz -> the CGPA is only barely reaching, O's eng did not meet requirements
So I consider about being a teacher...
NIE->
Art (art/music): Dont have any relevant cert and portfolios
Science (Lang): Physics nid take test, Eng nid take test etc.. (Because of my 'O' not good enough)

work?
Not my dream to work as an accountant, auditor, cost manager/officer or tax + it is boring to me..
Cannot even take up relief teaching in MOE cause I dont even remember what I learn
I also consider other jobs such as Air-stewardess (Motion sickness), Model (Not tall/ pretty enough), Patissier (No skills) etc..

So... conclusion..
Dont learn/do things halfway, as it does not increases our nice memories or achievements.. Cause not completing = no cert/qualifications, it does not increase our choices of what to do in the future

Opps... I suddenly remembered what is my ambition when I am small.. It is to open a toy factory.. One that manufactures doll houses and soft toys XD

2009-03-02T20:42:00.003+08:00

I am feeling really horrible .. headache, neck pain..

Internship manager did not do my appraisal
Mr Lee did not do my appraisal
VP cannot receive my documents and did not do my appraisal

A really big pimple on my forehead

Friend's Bday dont know whether to go and what present to buy
Friend want me to help in the drawing of his gaming competition.. Should I join or not?

Tired ....

2009-02-26T23:23:00.002+08:00

My friend asked me to look for a boyfriend....
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Wat a joke... =_=lll

2009-02-25T22:50:00.004+08:00

Finally exams ended...
The next problem arise... To work or to study??

At first I wanted to go NTU is because of course I dont want to work and I wanted to learn violin.. Then suddenly become really feel like going there..
However, although almost everyone got apply for uni in poly, it seems like most of them are more determined to go to work instead..

Why I dont want to work?
Cause I no confidence.. I not even sure what I learnt over these three years.. I am scare of being critisize that I am stupid or something along that line (Cause I am always reminded of it since young).. I am afraid of responsibility, communication, opening up, stress etc etc...
No courage, no confidence. In other words low self esteem and is very self concious...

I still remember when I am in pri sch, my bro is scare of working. I even told him, this also scare, if it is me, I would have applied for it, can earn more money.. Now, it turns out that I am the one with this problem..

So why did the me then and the me now is different ??
Exactly what happened in between???????

I guess it is due to accumulation of other's opinion.... maybe?
I feel that I used to be more cheerful or care nothing about the world kind ... I do what I do (Although I still do but to a limit)... I like to follow principles (mine??)... In pri sch, I always make sure I tuck in my PE shirt, bring my lunchbox, I refuse to wear anything except dress/skirt etc.. I thought it is normal...
Then suddenly one day (I guess that is the most early opinion that affect me), during PE running, a girl came out to me and say, "Hey, why do u always tuck in your shirt? Are you trying to be sexy (in pri sch =_=ll) and attract boys' attention?" (Partly also because I am taller than them and thus the PE shorts seems especially short)
Confused, so I look back, all the gals did not tuck in.. Then, of course I say no and then follow suit, so as not to stand out...

Cause I got see my class outcasting one transfer gal b4, it is very terrible. They wont talk to her, share stuff with her, talk bad etc etc.. (Although I am her good friend later ... haha) Then she cannot stand it, transfer again...

Afterwards, lots of other comments like why u so skinnier than us, u are so daring etc... Then when I gain weight now, become my mother say why u so fat, so timid... =_=ll (cause she lighter than me, I am lighter than her originally)

LOL.. I am talking about myself again... I guess I like to talk about myself...

But anyway, in the process, I think I am loss.. I am not sure which is the real me.. So I get afraid and no confidence about what I can do....
Like pri sch, I am confident about sports even if academic is super terrible.. in sec sch is maths, although the rest are borderline.. in poly, there isnt anything I am especially good at.. there is nothing to rely on...?
I have to have something I can boost to be confident? Maybe that is me ...?

Back to question, work or study.. ?????????????

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2009-02-23T00:21:00.003+08:00

Invitation to birthday party.. what should I do?
Go or dont go?
Dont really want you see me like this and will I be able to talk properly?
Do I still...??
Is everything repeating again??

My "??" key on the laptop keyboard finally drops off.. So diffiult to press now ..
Maybe I should ask less questions already? haha

2009-02-08T20:41:00.013+08:00

Well since we are graduating this year, I wanted to give a gift to my class.. But cant think of any... Just then I thought of drawing a class chibi .. (I managed to draw it in JC)

Does it resemble me?

But then It is very difficult to capture everyone's main feature.. Even though I have been observing all of them for a while now.. (For me, it is my specs and hairstyle. And ocassional hairband) I want to make it such that the moment people see it, u will know who it is..

I gave up after drawing 3 people ..

There is 2 drafts here
Can u guess who is who?

(Highlight to see answer)

1.YT 2.HM

A few of the problems ...

RY -> Hair ..... Never really know how it looks like

Jes -> Hair ..... Center parting... Draw out look very weird...

CY -> Can't grab main feature cause her "diao" leave the most impression XP

So I guess no present after all... XP

2009-02-06T18:10:00.002+08:00

I have been sick for 3 days from sore throat to Flu + Cough + SOre Throat.. I almost have a fever 37.4 degree C.. Somehow my degree keep stopping there whenever I measure. The thermometer must be spoil one lo.. cause my body burning like dont know what..

Then eat what also feel like vomiting + cannot eat properly due to sore throat, Whole body no strength and feel dizzy when walking.. First time sick until so tired.. cause

Play games -> Feel like sleeping
Sleep -> Feel guilty for not studying for exams
Study -> Feel like playing Piano
Piano -> Feel like playing games

Whole time dont know what I want to do.. waste a lot of time.. haiz

2009-02-03T22:21:00.002+08:00

Received a rose today from MC .. haha not only me though..
And then we did stupid thing with that rose.. That is to wear it... -_-ll

Girls are ok but boys hahah XD Hilarous .. Everyone gave us a super weird look like is there any special event or stuffs like that.. THere is even one group of girls mumbling "Kawaii Ne" when they pass by us .. XP

Exams.. are round the corner.. In fact it is barely 2 weeks. Yet I dont have any sense of urgency at all.. I wonder why. Maybe because I dont know where to start from??

Even though I aim for NTU but my actions dont prove anything .. -_- haiz...

2009-01-31T22:15:00.006+08:00

Today my mother called me wake up at 9 to go to the NTU talk.. but I always drag 30 mins and ended up reaching Suntec city convention at 1145am..

So I missed the Accountancy talk.. But hm told me that lucky i missed cause they didn't say much.. haha

Anyway when I reached there, so many helpers sia and everyone pushing brochures into my hands.. and I got free foolscap and a packet of 3 in 1 coffee haha .. I waited outside until 12 for the financial assistances talk..

When the accountancy talk ended and people came out, there are so many people I know haha.. for example edward, yi hong, xian hui etc..
Then I go meet ry and hm, wh leave as soon as i reach.. and then weirdly SQ is behind me with her *ahem* hahah ...

Somehow the first 30 mins of the talk is very engineering and talk a lot about NTU.. like semester schedule, holidays, requirements...

There is one requirement that is to get a min B4 for O lvl eng.. At first I felt relieve cause I tot I got B4.. But when I reached home and checked, I got C5 T.T
That means if I wanna go NTU, I have to take a Qualifying English test.. sian..
Interview already not sure can pass ma, now got additional eng test (my weakest subject).. haiz..

Then when I tell my mother NTU sch reopen in Aug, she asked me to go back to the APT office there to work temp.. to gain more experience.. I immediately sian diao.. It is not that I am afraid to ask.. It is I am afraid to go back there.. I fear having to speak to client, the tense atmosphere around my manager (Although I dont feel it there but when I reach home, I will immediately break down.. haha .. stress..), the uncertainty of what is going to happen next and making mistakes.. Not that I make lots of mistakes, instead it is the opposite.. I rarely make mistakes during APT but I am always clumsy and will make mistakes when I least expect.. Ok.. I am scare of being scolded and not meeting others' requirements

(Think is because of my mother..)
she always scold me for every little things, my manners, my meaningless phrase like when I tell her, "stop telling me your weight" (she really dont have to tell me everytime she weight herself - it is irritating), my cold jokes (she can't tell it is one) etc etc... So actually I have a lot of "not to do" things to rmb..
I remember the thing she hate most is people not listening to what she say and dont reply.. Although she often don't reply me, she will always say I too soft or any excuse.. smile smile/ scold me and end already...
If is me no reply her (Really didnt hear or dont really feel like answering-gossips kind), no matter what I say will also make her angry... laugh and she will get more mad... Then, she will stop talking to me.. If i talk to her during this period, she wont say anything/either stare at me or dont look etc etc...
Hahah I ended up complaining..
Conclusion: Resulted in me being afraid of people scolding me especially those of higher authority.. cause I dont know how to handle it..

Continue....
In other words, I lack courage.. So I somehow very envy ruru.. Cause as long as she receive $$ she dont mind anything.. Or rather she is not scare of what I scare.. haiz...

What should I do?

2009-01-28T02:25:00.004+08:00

Although I said will blog later as in a few days later.. but somehow this year starts not so good...

Oldest Aunty Part
in Chu Xi, my aunty stayed over ah ma house but whole night got disturbed by my ah ma and ended up didn't sleep well and headache.. Plus Chu 2 my ah ma tot my uncle (she dote most) not coming and did not cook anything for lunch and dinner (she only cooks if he come).. In the end He did come la but that is not important.. The thing is 20+ people hungry for whole afternoon... So my aunty even more angry and did not stay much for the 3 days...

Mother Part
Same thing angry with no lunch and dinner thing.. Decided to treat pizza hut.. Ordered 6 Large box $136+ (no promo) .. Of course everyone eat very happy (5+pm).. My ah ma suddenly decide to cook.. (6+pm) but everyone too full.. Not much people eat.. Ah ma angry plus she naughty, dont wanna eat her medicine.. Quarrel with my mother ... Haiz =_=ll

Addition: My 2nd bro brought his GF on chu 1 to my ah ma house.. send her home at 10.30pm (she live tampines and my ah ma house in bkt batok).. Everything end at 12+ and he still not back with car.. Have to ma fan my cousin drive up drive down.. Mother more angry..

Brothers Part
Lose money .. hahha

Overall 1 yr see 1 time relatives
Not much of them come to ah ma house this time.. Seems like a few quarrelled and divorced, one got married overseas and pregnant (Parents flew over to take care).. One came on Chu 2 cause too busy.. And she exprienced a weird thing.. Her son's friend (Female) got dumped by her husband with 2 sons.. That mother left her sons with my relative for 3 months care cause not free... Suddenly she claimed that she dont want them anymore and will give my relative $200 per month for milk powder fees if she is willing to adopt them.. if not shd be go orphanage.. of course she adopt.. But anyway my hong bao shrink about 40%.. haiz.. A quiet new year...

Ah ma Part
Got police come cause they say people complained we too noisy on Chu Xi (On TV too loud).. but the weird thing is We didnt even on TV, no kids are playing and that all are quietly playing cards or mahjong only...

Friend's Part
Seems like there is no sec sch meeting sian.. and my friend is like so troubled by her love life, haiz.. draggy.. dont like break, like dont break.. it is not that hard.. See u like that I sad lei.. cause u should not be someone who is so .... Draggy.. ?

My own part
Hong Bao shrink (Add up buy printer toner liao), nothing to do cause I dont wanna play cards yet cannot do homework, projects, play game or study, CNY too quiet pass by, Too many sad stuff.. etc etc...
Tomorrow ("today" wed to fri) have to go school by myself.. dont know can wake up ma...
NOT ENOUGH SLEEP!
Only happy is saw a lot shuai ge when go bai bai ... LOL! haha....

2009-01-28T01:55:00.000+08:00

will blog CNY stuff soon....

hopefully..

2009-01-13T21:28:00.002+08:00

Last night I played rune factory 2 on my ds, when I am about to save the game and go to bed (I playing on my bed) I ... FELL ASLEEP without knowing! I dont know how I take my specs off de lo.. luckily my ds did not fell off the bed and that i did not crush it (cause whole night I sleep same position, no move at all XD)

I did not save my game and that my ds is on until battery die out .. T.T
However, when I woke up I tot I saved the game haha (Guess I saved in my dream but it is so realistic...)

Just feel like posting... (GAMEs Stuffs)

Somehow i tot that playing adventure RPG on my DS is not fun.. like graphic not very nice or that the storyline will be very crappy cause the game space cannot be very big like CDs...

Yesterday finally decided to play rune factory 2 on my ds...
Rune factory 2. It is like Harvest moon (HM)+ adventure
I quite like it.. cause got the usual HM functions like chasing gals -> get married -> have babies (I like dating simulations - not those artistics de, dont know why.. Dont tell me to look for bf instead of playing fake ones, I heard too many times already), building relationships, events, festivals, cooking... & OF COURSE i LOVE THEIR GREAT/COLOURFUL GRAPHICS =D

Also, there is rearing animals- petting, feeding (monster in this case), growing crops etc..

What is different is the adventure... It make it more addictive than the original HM cause usually in HM u keep watering, mining, fishing .. we always repeat what we do everyday and thus, it will get bored someday..
Now, without upgrading tools we can already water (or whatever tools) the 3X3 fieldwith a bit RP (rune point I think- something like MP), there is little quest given by the villagers (they will reward u when complete), kill monsters (increase stat) and many more (only played for 1 hour so still not familiar)

Something I dont like is that u cannot click the dialogs to make it go very fast.. as in if u replay/ forgot to save, u will have to wait for it come out slowly...

But overall it is a good game up until now.. =D
I love Natsume games like previously the princess debut and all the HM series also very fun

There is another game "Children of mana" that I wanted to play.. it belongs to the Mana series..
I have only played "Legend of mana" on PS1 though... That is when I loved the game, the design and everything.. It is an interesting game..
but somehow it seems like the Mana series, is not very popular after the 3rd game... And I read a lot of reviews saying that children of mana is not very fun or something like that..
Anyway I checked out youtube for player's game video, it seems very fun but the graphics is like not so good...

Will still give it a try.. =D
However, I don't think I will try Hero of Mana.. dont really like the character/graphic designs..
The style seems more western instead of jap.. (Sorry I am picky) and the graphic is really bad I heard so it dont interest me.. (Just my opinion but I never even play once so cannot take my opinion as a review of the game, it is not fair to those who used hardwork in producing the game)

2009-01-12T22:26:00.003+08:00

Quite a lot happened this weekend

Firstly on Saturday, after being forced to wake up at 1130, Have to clean my room and stuff until 5pm... Even though I planned to do my tutorial... Ended up didnt do anything..
My mother have a serious health problem on sat... dont know counted as what. something that is similar to food poisoning... keep vomiting, feeling cold, waist ache etc etc

But she still can pull me to JP and shop for clothes XD hahaha
Of course she give up only after like 1 hour of shopping cause too pain le

Whole day I am like her private nurse.. help her massage, medicine, water, call my dad etc..

Then on Sunday 11+ am I am awoke by a shock... That my eldest bro has caught in a car accident..
Apparently his friend's car suddenly lost control and they crashed into a lamp post... His friend did not have any injury but the car is so damaged that it is impossible to repair... And lucky my brother only dislocated his left arm I think.. Nothing too serious...

But when he took Xray in hospital, they say that there isn't anything wrong, gave him painkillers and a 2days MC only.. How can a dislocation be cured by painkillers??? =_=ll

So my father brought him to chinese med doc.. He fixed it back for $55 (includ. a $5 discount for not screaming and cursing like my 2nd bro... hahaha XP)

Just thinking about dislocation make me dizzy... rmb my right leg that time also dislocated...
I tot that I am going to lose my leg for good and kept crying..

Hiaz .. .ok dont think liao.... -_-

2009-01-09T00:37:00.004+08:00

Sometimes being too fortunate, bad luck follows....

Tomorrow having AFA presentation (I am only standing in the BG though), have to wear long-sleeve formal T...

So i decided to be guai one time, prepare for my clothes before sleep so that tomorrow will not be so rush... But somehow I cannot find my one and only pink long sleeve T... From 1130pm till 1230am, I like ransack the whole house... Even look into my bros' & parent cupboards but just could not find it..

Then suddenly remember that previously I got clear my clothes, so that all unwanted ones will be sent to my "relatives" in Philippines.. I might have accidentally group my T together with the unwanted ones....

Sian.. Dont know what to do... Look at MSN friend list...

Thought of asking help but a bit too late cause need it tmr morning, cannot ask my BEST friend... Lucky SQ can lend me..! THANK YOU THANK YOU... U r my saver .... Really... Have to trouble her go sch at 8.45am tomorrow a bit ps...
And I should be able to fit in her T ba...... So tomorrow I will be black black.. First time..

If cannot fit I also don't know how liao.. I MIA? But I wanna know my AFA results...

Find until very tired, previous excitement wear off le... In less than one day =_=ll
Can sleep liao...

2009-01-08T23:15:00.003+08:00

YEAH YEAH YEAH!

I going to JJ's 28 March concert in Singapore Indoor Stadium!!
Kinda shock when my mother let me go... WEEE!
Because I only randomly suggested to my mother when I see the Ad on TV...
Still feeling very excited and happy.. =D
Cause it is my first time to go to a concert (and the 1st is JJ.. hehe) and the first time going with my BEST friend and the first time I will be seeing JJ in person... AND my first time sitting in front.... *drool*
Somehow, cannot believe it...

I am getting more and more excited.. HOW TO SLEEP TONIGHT!

OK! I AM GOING TO STUDY MORE HARD.. and then listen at peace to his concert without regretting how i do for exam... hahaha..
IT is a super rare chance for me...! Have to absorb everything he sings...
OK sounding more and more weird... =_=ll

Oh ya... Have to save money too for chalet... impossible to ask from my mother liao since she loan me money to buy 2 tickets =D

(Hopefully my excitment wont die down... since have to wait like 2months+... 去喜欢的地方不兴奋的话然后又贵是很对不起自己的 cannot let history repeat again like when I waited 5 months to go Japan, I dont feel excited at all and missed a lot of things..)

2009-01-06T21:38:00.003+08:00

Holiday end liao, still slacking, as always.. First week tutorial didn't do in holiday. Haiz... regret a bit...
Then today got back CLAW and TAX2.... I PASSED YEAH! UNEXPECTED for CLAW though....

I really quite sure I will fail CLAW and AUDIT before.. Now left Audit.. The possibility of failing increase when Mr Lee say got 21/22 people fail.. Sian

During holidays, I go 拜拜 and promised that I will study hard if I pass all my common test.. Wah.. Hopefully will pass sia... but I know this is lin shi bao fo jiao... hahaha =_=ll

Tomorrow will get back le... Doki Doki.... X[

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During Sunday as usual go my ah ma house, my cousin accidentally kicked my leg.. (is slip pass that kind) Then she say my legs very smooth hahah XP So funny... and I tot mine is one of the most dry haha =_=ll

Ok.. End up her more dry than me.. That's why XD
But like so shuan cause since young my mother only say my skin like snake, first time people say smooth... XD

hehhee...

2008-12-11T13:46:00.002+08:00

Recently have been very stressed up over common test and even more stressed up as my classmates keep discussing the correct answer after the test...

Cause it is like I didn't get anything right...

So after each test, I ended up "locking in my room" and study harder and harder (as in without stopping kind).. I even abandon my habit of MUST SLEEP FOR AT LEAST 3 hours right after the test thing.. (but I got slp for at least 4 hours each night as usual) I have this habit cause I always end up exhausted after test/exam even if it is my most good at subject..

I am weak I guessed..

but of course because of that whatever I memorised for yesterday tax, I forgot during the test as I am too tired.. Haaha, not because of ry emphasize of NET la.. haha, a too tired person will only rmb what is last said..

But yesterday I did nap for 1 hour and discovered how tired I am, I cant even see clearly after the nap, like i accidentally spilled some furikake (those jap kind of sprinkles over rice thing, got seaweed, wasabi etc) on the floor, but I can't even see where it is without leaning my face on the floor.. haha -_-ll

so ended up no study yesterday

and then today, still very sleepy.. then no motivation.. actually wanna get some motivation by looking at my past results (pri, sec and poly)

I always knew that I am really lousy in pri sch.. except in pri one, I rarely get any band 1 at all... mostly band 3.. and during sec sch, I have always remained on the 70% + range in terms of total results (Initially 50-60+%) ..

I forgot about it and always thought that I have done quite well at least 80+% ... cause last time I only mind my position in class haha .. as long as top 3, I am happy

Then after going to poly, so many experts in our class, I kinda feel as if getting GPA 3.5 and above is a must do thing.. so I felt disappointed when my first gpa is 2.95 (73%) but it is actually what my usual result should be.. (I forgot that I am only good at math but not everything =_=ll) and keep wanna aim for 3.5 and above.. never study but keep putting stress on myself..

In fact, I think poly results are the best overall results I have ever got all my life until now

In the end now then know that I have never enjoyed my poly life at all, I did not make any really good friends like in pri sch, no achievement in cca at all like in sec sch, no motivation at all like when I go for 3 months JC..

and have hated myself for being lazy for 2 and a half year..

Now I only wish that my CT will at least pass, I dont want retest T.T
It doesn't matter even if I don't excel any more, cause it is not my range..
and not my speciality to study it all... and

working hard is definitely not me unless I really liked something..

After all, I am a very average person, average results, sports, looks and talent... with no speciality but a little of eveything =P

Always online

2008-11-25T00:38:00.003+08:00

I really like "always online" by jj lin... omg it is so nice ... although the leveno laptop ad a bit scarrrryyyy... yet sweet at the same time..

and the song little dimple too... XD

this is the always online movie...

Mentally and Physically tired

2008-11-21T21:08:00.002+08:00

Recently like a lot of things happen but time go by too fast..
Projects, tutorials, common test.. my life like go aroud this three only..

My mind keep thinking about what we discussed today during project, cannot even concentrate when play piano... hmm...
I seems to wanna type a lot of things here, but then suddenly at a loss at what to put here and what not to, sianz

Tutorial Answers

2008-11-18T22:50:00.002+08:00

For the past few weeks, i believed in what the teacher say, no need to copy tutorial answer cause the answer will be uploaded by the presentation group. So..... I didn't copy..

I AM WRONG!! I SHOULD HAVE COPIED...

No one uploaded anything for Audit, MA, Tax and most of AFA qns... what shd I do?! No answers and common test coming... what should I use to revise?!

sianz...

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2008-11-07T21:07:00.002+08:00

Very long no post le.. hahhaa
Too busy doing a lot of stuff (E.g. Watch animes, practice piano, baking, drawing haha)

Today bought a book from Popular " Learn to Play -The Violin by Frank Cappelli" $13.90
Read a lot about it and then hand very itchy, wanna learn violin XD

So checked info abt violins hehehe.. but hor it is not like my mother will let me buy/ learn violin.. So I guess the book will be placed on shelf for quite a few years =S haiz

a lot of things

2008-10-27T23:10:00.018+08:00

A long post..

Firstly a Newly opened 7Eleven near my hdb... a bit shocking cause never see it b4... I mean they are always clear glass walls
and happy cause easy access to MASH POTATOES! hahaha

they sold quite a lot of things.. from normal what u find in 7eleven (tibits drinks etc) to oil, detergents, flour etc .. haha more like a provision shop. OH YA! and a lot of WINNIE THE POOHS ..

My mother ask me quickly go there apply to work part time hahaha.. maybe i shd really consider..

Next up... Jap first lesson sat 25 oct.. It is simple to learn and not that bad but quite a bit of homework to do.. simply said is like primary sch teaching style with people range from age 17 to 40+???

Then.. this 3 days (sat to mon) my parents went to genting (jus came back)...
So I played and watch animes every minutes i can afford ahhaha... an unhealthy 3 days

1. Game

I played Kiniro no Corda (Japanese)... A musical + dating sims PC game .. although it is said dating sims, there is no dating around at all.. jus that the guys will like u more and walk u home ocassionally or smile more...

I was expecting more.. at least an ending with the guy that has the highest affection will do.. but well .. THERE IS NOTHING! Jus Lili (the fairy) saying thanks and no more... T.T

But having said that, I repeated playing at least 4 times ... each time around 5-6 hours?? so.. hahha ..... well i did sleep 6 hours a day (6am -12 noon) but it seems like I forgot to eat breakfast and lunch... only 1 meal a day

But it is not like a am dieting or what .. also, i did not get lighter at all...

2. Anime

After playing the games ~ 4 times, I got fired up and try to rewatched the anime ep1-25 + 1 sp.. at one go... yesterday... 1 am to 530am... and announce defeat from being too sleepy at ep22..

I remembered wanting to learn violin after watching the anime .. haha but my mother dont allow and I joined NP strings but one day only i quit cause too shocked + shy at the terrible sound that came out of my violin.. while everyone else's sound so good.. Weak determinations sia.. Also, I have to hide from my mother that I joined + cannot buy personal violin etc.. Dont like it at all... Like very tiring...

I still wanna learn violin individually though.. hmm.. maybe nid still wait a few years more until i earn my own money (But i a bit too old liao by then) or at least after graduating from my jap

then continue after wake up... + some weekly animes =P

Well, I did practice my piano too..

WHY DID I STOP PLAYING PIANO??

Well... Long story.. for those interested, read on....

Teacher's fault =>

At first i learn at Yamaha, but apparently, communication problem with the teacher so... one month only stop liao..

When learning private, the teacher is super busy with her 5 years old (?) daughter + her Uni (? or some studying) ... Initially (2-3 months) still ok.. no change in timetable except she sometimes late...

then after that my timetable keep jumping here and there.. from every thur 4pm (Last time sec sch end at 330pm.. 5 mins walk home, change, 15mins walk to her house) to any day of the week... and

1.sometimes 2 days a week (can be sat and sun together... I end up too stress as it is like never even get to practice at all)..
2.there are even times when she teach 2 people at one time (she got 2 pianos at different room.. but it is not like her rooms are sound proof, almost all her students smaller than 10years old)
3.Also, she always walk around to do her own stuff while she ask u to play for her to hear..
4.Because she knows that I got electrical keyboard background for like 3-4 years, she skipped a lot of basics (So very hard to handle -> stress, due to that until now, my left hand still not good at all.. cannot curl properly)

She is not a bad teacher but the timetable jus make me find that it is a task to play/learn piano rather than an enjoyable thing...

My own fault => (of course my mother didnt know)

After the changing of timetables repeatedly, I got "bored" of piano and didnt wanna practice, always before lesson 10mins then I will look at the score and play on my keyboard (haven get piano yet)

and then because I only practice 10mins, I of course cant be any good.. although can pass and end up getting lots of bad comments (though she did not scold me)... This goes on for a few months..

then I start to "run" away from piano lessons. at first is unwilling to ring the doorbell.. I will always stand near the lift area 10mins before I decide to in..

then, I start to skip lessons informing last mins (eg 4 times a week only go 2 times)... make the timetable even worse cause lots of makeups

So I missed without informing (no makeups)... and then due to accumulated stress, dont know since when, my hands start to tremble a lot when I play in front of her -> when I play at home (worsen).. I get nervous and wanna vomit even when I play to myself at home... I got scare even talking to her (this is also the start of me afraid of presentations and teachers/anyone superior- like apt manager)

At first is wanna quit right after grade 3 exams (my mother still dont know) but have to wait to get my cert first...

During that period she told me that I wont be taking grade 4 exams but directly to grade 5 -> extra stress... I mean I am not genius (at least I dont think I am), how to take grade 5 when I only learnt piano for barely one year+ ... she always rush at me taking exams (I also skipped grade 1).. yet she is still giving me grade 1 books to practice..

practicing grade 1 book and exam grade 5 ?! imagine how stress i am (and that time is sec 2 EOY exams + 3 tuitions + CCAs)

After dragging for a few months, I quit... (I even missed 4 lessons before quiting with an sms.. I think to her I am quite a problematic kid haha)

haha.. then after quiting, I didnt touch my piano for like half a year cause trembling did not stop.. my mother even wanna sell it away.. then I ocassionally play ... until recently almost completely stop trembling then i played more...

I still remember me trembling when I tried playing one of the piano at bukit timah plaza (TA06 KFC outing) and wei hao say no nid so nervous... lol

And the reason that my mother tot I stop learning piano is that I got no determination, cause she asked me to go learn again for a few times (of course I refused).. So now I wanna learn what (violin) she also feel that I wont complete it (Me completing the jap lessons now are crucial to gain my mother trust back).. and that it is useless..

Hahah used a lot of "then"...

Piano

2008-10-20T18:59:00.003+08:00

Tried playing the piano jus now ... Fur Elise by LV beethoven the full score (5 pages)not simplified one...

Since i never play b4, hahah it is a complete diaster when it reach the last 3 pages .. think anyone hear it will cry from me destroying the music >.<

Well after all I only took exam till grade 3 and didnt play much for 4 yrs liao... cant expect much from me... hehhe..

Haiz too bad cannot continue to learn piano... if i didnt stop maybe i grade 7 or 8 liao hahahha

..

2008-10-14T21:13:00.001+08:00

I finally know what i enjoy mosst!! hahaha... taking a nap in afternoon!

1st day of sch

2008-10-13T22:46:00.004+08:00

Nothing special happen .. still as lazy .. day still as hot

...

Think I took off shoes too much during apt/working until that I auto took off shoes when sat down today XD .. hahah

Funny -> First time heard a guy say he discovered his gf not pretty... a bit shocked haha. I mean it sounds weird..

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed.

With respect to money, you spend as little as possible.

You think good luck doesn't exist - reality is built on practicalities.

The hidden side of your personality tends to be methodical in your ways - with trouble adapting to the rules of society.

You have a tendency to overdo things, but basically you value your friendships highly.

When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you make opportunities to interact with many people through club activities or a hobby, then select someone you like.

Who's The True You?

everything is very true except last point.. I not sure... haha

Sch reopen

2008-10-12T22:26:00.001+08:00

TOmOrrOw Sch REOpen lE! ahh... sian .. .=P

Holiday

2008-10-06T21:51:00.001+08:00

My last 2 weeks holidays b4 sch reopen.. .what have i been doing?

Watch animes and play ds afternoon to morning ... hahahha

Last day

2008-09-30T23:24:00.004+08:00

Today is my last day of work @ Chinatown.. haha
No feelings at all.. like tomorrow still going to work .. haha

Previous few days quite sick.. have heavy flu whole day giddy giddy and back ache like hell.. haha

My mother even help me gua sa using a spoon (some sort of chinese massage??)... After the gua sa.. wah, totally GOOD! Felt a lot better.. the below pic might be quite disgusting but that is the end result of my neck after gua sa..

haha .. but I am fine already .. All healed except for my allergic which jus begin... *haiz*

NEWS

2008-09-25T21:07:00.007+08:00

Today listen to NEWS Concert songs.. omg sound even better than the mp3..

So powerful XD but think my speaker sound too lousy.. cause sounds a lot more great when listen through earpiece

and my favourite Yamapi! hehe

A juicy morning

2008-09-25T10:31:00.002+08:00

Today bought a Peel fresh juice, the one with carrot, apple and dont know what ... Happily go to office, sit down and open it...

So like normal.. clumsy accident happened.. Classic.. knock over the juice carton and the keyboard have a swim XP

BUsy wiping and didnt notice that my creative earpiece is swimming too.. Haha.. lucky no spoil...

Ingredients : 1 packet tissue + 1 box tissue + 0.5 hour cleaning + 1/2 amt of juice

I am hungry!!!!!!

Registered!

2008-09-25T00:09:00.003+08:00

Finally went to register jap lesson at bunka lang with my cousin

This is my textbook XD and next to it is it's shopping bag.. **OppS** Sch bag I mean .. hahaha

HOme SwEEt HoME

2008-09-23T21:18:00.002+08:00

Took the picture of the sunset on my way home on SMRT .. Beautiful... isn it??

haiz... think have to reformat com again

What Your Name Says About You

2008-09-22T13:24:00.003+08:00

What Your Name Says About You

Your name says that you are mostly:

Talented but unmotivated

Your name also says you are:

Moral but jealous

Ambitious but stubborn

Unconventional but unstable

What Does Your Name Say About You?

hahha totally true

What Joanna Means

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.

You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.

You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.

You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.

At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Those part abt jeslousy is most true... it will be more true if u use ur full name .. try it XD

Tired..

2008-09-21T01:57:00.004+08:00

I am so tired yesterday... =[ *opps* should say Friday..

Recently I reformatted my laptop .. because of this, I do not have my antivirus software .... and so when I click IE, google came out with a sorry message abt some virus/adware thing... (so shocked cause didnt go much website.. maybe cause charge mp3 whole night leaving internet connection on.. haiz) If too boring, jump to last few para ba

Downloaded trial norton antivirus but didnt found anything

Downloaded YAhoo! Anti-spy -> removed 25 adware/spyware (including 2 Hijackers)

Still cannot go google..

So downloaded spyware doctor and did some scanning ... discovered 3 threats 6 infections.. 4 Low risk tracking cookies and 2 medium risk adware (zeropopupbar)
but no registration key so can't remove..

Then found freeware Ad-aware -> removed 7 infections (found more infection than spyware doc! + 2 other hijackers) but cant remove zeropopupbar (I manually remove it by deleting registry YEAH! I DID IT!!)
But still cannot go google

scanned again using both spyware doc and ad-aware.. ad-aware didnt find anything except a few tracking cookies but spyware doc found a high risk hijacker! trojan CWS (coolwebsearch).. Too complicated to remove manually T.T

tried scanning using CWS shredder but found nothing..
Download XoftspySE -> need registration key again =[

So checked trojan exact name in spyware doc .. it is trojan-downlader.win32.small.ew ..

Found ans on Yahoo! answer... Advice is download 4 softwares: Avast, Ad-aware, HiJackThis 1.99 and REMOVE ON BOOT SHELL EXTENSION

I downloaded Avast antivirus (an antivirus that full scan com at startup, took quite a long time to start com .. =( too many files le)
Found nothing.. Well.. of course since I don't have any virus in the first place...

Ad-aware already found nothing

HiJackthis 1.99 found all problematic files =P (but only can delete the hijacker one or com will have trouble liao.. haha)
I remove trojan-downloader.win32.small.ew by deleting the file name (state in spyware doc) using HiJackthis 1.99...

Scanned again using both spyware doc and ad-aware ... YEAH! finally removed!!

Also downloaded REMOVE ON BOOT SHELL EXTENSION files to remove stubborn files that cannot be removed in add/remove programs...

haha.. The process too long and boring (too computer terms, doubt anyone will read but I just wanna type out to rmb this day haha) but anyway.. the whole process is from fri 9pm to sat 230am = 5.5 HOURS OF BATTLE AGAINST ADWARE/SPYWARE!!

Mental & physical exhaustion! + downloading lots of anti-softwares + blindly believe every solutions I can find .. hahha... Lucky.. it is solved

I HATE VIRUS, ADWARE & SPYWARE!! haha now think also angry, the stupid hijacker even off my firewall + antivirus when it found out that I trying to remove those Adware ... =D

Sian laptop become so Jam again. Hopeful not those le! *opps* maybe caused I scanning using 2 anti-adware again

Creative ZEN

2008-09-18T23:11:00.003+08:00

Bought a creative ZEN player! Hope it can last me at least 3-5 years haha...

At first cannot switch on.. scare me sia.. but finally switch on after pushing the reset button.. Currently still charging.. cant wait to try using.. But nid 4 hours =[ Alr transfer a few files le =D

Hopefully it wont spoil easily.. I scare ar.. =S

.....

2008-09-18T10:16:00.007+08:00

I really feel that I shd enjoy life more .. Like going out play with friends or what.. play I mean like go cycling, rollar blading or like go visit places..
But no one accompany me.. haiz..

Like Meechee say NO BF, NO Friend.. NO work (opps**) shd be NO $$ for me..

haha.. Really wanted to be with them during yesterday outing after selecting timetable... sian so sad..

Wah.. yesterday my turtle finally ate the mutlivitamin .. YEAH!

bored bored bored

2008-09-18T10:16:00.000+08:00

I am really very bored.... nothing grab my interest.. sianzzzz

MP3

2008-09-17T22:02:00.004+08:00

Wanna buy a new mp3 cause current one not even one GB, not enough to use...
Planning to buy a cheap 2GB MP3 but ended up my mother ask me buy good and ex one.. haha

So decided on creative ZEN (LCD Screen) 16GB--> http://sg.creative.com/products/product_CreativeStore.asp?category=213&subcategory=214&product=16999&listby=

Went down creative -- closed
went IMM - Best Denki -- $20 more ex
- Challenger -- Sold out and keep promoting ZEN X-Fi (but weird thing is under the display shelf, there is a box LABELLED "16GB" Creative ZEN =[ )

Shopped Daiso and bought a hairband hahaha...

Lazy turn the pic hahah...

Choosing timetable is a mental & physical battle haha

Mr. Turtle

2008-09-16T21:46:00.004+08:00

Mr. Turtle Introduction

Name: Da Gui
Age: 6+ - 7 years old
Gender: A mystery
Size: well.. Dieting now
Weight: Better don't know

Fave Food: My master fingers/toes
Fave place: Dark corners (as clamp as possible, I like to squeeze)

Habit: Scratch my master piano
First Meeting: Cause I climb crazily on the shopkeeper's arm when I first saw my master.. but she like.. what can I do.. =[

Features: In BOrn Good looking with bright eyes..
Shell: Caused by my master feeding me too much goodies & no exercise [Already changing *groans* I am hungry..]

That is all for now..

Signing off**
Da Gui

TUrtle LuV

2008-09-16T21:24:00.004+08:00

Wah.. .I love my turtle..

This is my turtle walking in my room.. Not very clear cause my turtle walk very fast.. hahhahaa

CUTE RIGHT XD

I bought Multivitamin for my turtle today $34.90 in Watson... My wallet T.T

A clearer pic

My Turtle DISCOVERED ME!! haha .. no lo.. he dont care de.. I lure him with my fingers...

Japanese Lang.

2008-09-15T23:40:00.003+08:00

I know I posted a lot today .. haha but today just happened to be so happening.. hahaa

Wah going to register for Jap course with my cousin ... Seems really weird studying with my cousin.. omg.. XD like very ps sia..

And I cannot lose to him in results hahaha.. (what if he read my blog??? )

NVM doubt he got the time anyway... XD

Worm ATTACK!!

2008-09-15T23:30:00.002+08:00

Wah today eat lunch, those normal 1 veg + 1 meat + rice that kind.. The Veg super fresh sia... Fresh until got dead WORM!!! ARRARARARAR ...

Dont even know if I alr swallow a few or what.. The worm is a lot of legs one, ard 1 cm long, apple green and the body like those a lot of balls connect together that kind.. Totally disgusting.. I threw it out of the plate and it flew to another table XD... (lucky no land on someone else plate or will have to wish him good luck hahah XD)

After that, my stomach feel really bad. Wanna vomit everything out. but I jus squeeze the rest of the rice in my mouth and swallow it...

Buying Creative Zen.. the one can play MP4 one... is it good??

Results

2008-09-15T13:45:00.002+08:00

Today results out!! I so gan jiong .. Early morning 7+ already using laptop to check result.. and was quite disappointed.. hahaha.. Cause I put in a lot of effort in APT..

until a few minute ago, a guy same company as me, told me he got A too but have GPA 4, then I realised I look at the wrong result.. Wah.. =DDD
hahaa.. I am so happy.. At first I tot still got a high A and low A (like A, A+ and AD)

hahahhaha..

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2008-09-15T08:56:00.003+08:00

Today morning in mrt station someone stepped on my pants.. T.T almost *ahem*.. hahha
but lucky dont have.. i gave the person a super hard stare... =DD

I realise I dont know NEWS much .. always listening to only a few of their songs, those more recent ones... hmm... and also didnt even watch their PV ..

Relationship

2008-09-12T14:39:00.003+08:00

Recently my mother ask me whether I understand people's characters and all this.. She afraid that I will get cheated or ended up with lousy boyfriend.. (haha.. more like I cheat people) and then what kind of character boyfriend I should look for..

Haha.. she want me to find someone who has a "cute" character like me.. haha my char Cute meh?!?
But anyway basically someone who also love soft toys and stuff that I like ... etc etc...

So any cute guys out there wanna be candidate?? hahaha .. (Surely no one de.. haha)

Characters that I really dont like..
- All talk but no action

- Keep hinting here and there, die die dont want to confess and wanna see if gal interested in him (Who knows that u r int if u dont speak out)

- Jokingly say that like a gal and when gal refuse, say that "U tot I seriously like u ar.. impossible la.. and keep laughing"

-etc etc

OMG~~~

2008-09-12T00:21:00.002+08:00

Jus reformatted my laptop cause everything too messy and too laggy....

BUT BUT the most important thing!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHhh
those favourite links to website I often go are ALL GONE !! aaaaaaAAAAAaaa I forgot to copy it out..

What am I suppose to do...

my beloved conan, code geass and game stuffs etc etc sayounara!!! T.T

OMG !! Jus realised my anime list also got deleted... ""I am dead"" have to re-do it again.. X[ I even put rating in the previous list..

Pooh~

2008-09-11T22:54:00.006+08:00

Finally willing to wear my Pooh set after coming back for one month.. It is actually a T-Shirt Plus boxer (haha anyhow la), bought seperately.. in Tokyo Disneyland.. Saw a lot of jap wear it in couple look (only the shirt.. haha who wear boxer on the street except me?? haha)

Doesn't it look like a whole pooh .. hehhee
The back is more cute .. but paiseh la.. hahha my butt lei XD

Boring life

2008-09-11T13:34:00.001+08:00

Eh. Still got nothing to type haha. What a boring life I have haha

....

2008-09-10T09:01:00.001+08:00

Nothing to type.. jus to let u know I am still here hahahaha

New Forum

2008-09-08T22:10:00.000+08:00

A new forum created by my friends.. http://snaclub.forumotion.net/

mashed potatoes

2008-09-08T08:51:00.001+08:00

I really liked 711 mashed potatoes.... XD I am addicted =D hahaha..

Eat it almost every morning... is it bad ???

jus being bored...

2008-09-04T21:10:00.003+08:00

why do all good things come to an end?

Because the best thing has yet to come XD
If good things last forever, it won't be a good thing unless there is bad things to contrast against it hahahaha...

haha... jus too free sprouting nonsense...

Friendster's Horoscope

The Bottom Line
The compliments a stranger gives you will mean so much more than what friends say.

In Detail
It's odd, but the compliments a stranger gives you will mean so much more than what friends or loved ones say about you, today. Perhaps there is a tendency for people who know you to be jealous about how fabulous you look or how popular you've become, which prevents them from genuinely meaning what they are saying -- and you'll pick up on it. Try not to get upset that the people you rely on are letting you down in terms of cheering you on. Just let it go today.

Come people compliment me quick~~ hhehehe =PP

Hmm...

2008-09-04T08:52:00.003+08:00

I find that people always like to talk to me about their problems or worries everytime... I am willing to listen..
However, whenever I wanna tell people about my problems, they don't really wanna hear.. haha Or Am I just too talkative until they find it irritating??

..... well ..... nvm at least my mother still willingly to listen to my complains to a certain extend... =D

Fell asleep again..

2008-09-03T08:50:00.002+08:00

Argh.. I fell asleep on MRT again and I was planning to play my NDSL..
Sian alr not much time to play liao..
Haiz.. starting last sat, my mother decided to stay at home do housework instead of going to work

Tired...

2008-09-02T09:00:00.002+08:00

Fell asleep on the train today .. Rather rare... =D

Yesterday night spent time reading a thread about NEWS on some forum..
They say about Yamapi and NEWS.. that Yamapi have more fans than NEWS the group itself.. or lots of stuff abt yamapi more popular than NEWS/ like a NEWS with Yamapi is not NEWS... haha...

No matter what, I still like every member of NEWS, though I like yamapi more =D

Decided

2008-09-01T23:48:00.001+08:00

I will make this my last blog created.. hahah no matter what XD

.... Ganbatte ne...... watashi

Wooo hooo

2008-09-01T22:43:00.001+08:00

I have a new blog....
Haha I have decided to keep things as simple as possible...

So... Argh I cant wait for my work to END SOON!!!
the holiday, the chalet come quickly <3